Lookin through this blog at my art, I can see that I have improved drastically in style and ability, but there is still one thing that makes my art seem….. childish. The lack of depth, the lack of that third dimension that really needs to be in there… Anyone who may know any good tips, advice or tutorial sites, please dont by too shy to point me in the right direction.
Unless of course i go into a two dimensional style…….
A few days ago, I came across my old “massive attack” music, and found their song, Butterfly Caught. remembered the video clip to it and was instantly inspired by it’s simplistic complication.
And thats how this came around.
Last night and many nights for the past year I have gone out with the intention of dancing, drinking and having a good night. Almost every single time I do this however my mind slowly shifts in nature towards anti-socialism culminating in my bringing everybody elses night down. Therefore to soften the blow of my sissyness on my mates, I simply leave and walk home.
I do intend to attempt (at least) to understand why this continues to happen to me, and why if indeed I am an antisocial, do I feel that I should be having fun.
Last night I dreamt that I was holding somebody elses baby, the thing was so small, and so inept. I put it down just for a second, and someone walking by accidentally stomped on it. The shock I felt in that dream was as strong as any shock i’d felt througout my life. It was profound, seeing the poor little baby crushed and ruined beneath the blankets on a sidewalk. And I sat there watching it waiting for some kind of sign that somewhere along the line I had done something right something to vindicate and maybe even vindicate me. I found nothing. The baby was dead, and it was not even mine.
From there I awoke with a start feeling that same sorrow at the loss of such a small life. Was there symbolism in all of that? I have no idea, not yet anyway….
I’ve been working on a major art-project over the past few days, i’ll keep you all posted on that one as I get a bit further into it, but for now; I’ve two low res tests of a Van Gough ish style thing of art
Here they are, Sunrise and Path
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Today was to some extent a “Red Letter Day” as on this very day last year was the last day of my being in a relationship.
It’s been a good year though, I’ve done a great deal of what I wanted to do. Things like funding my own way over to New Zealand or finding out that i can actually support myself sufficiently. Moving outta home and realising the true fun of breaking rules. I’ve put myself through a boring as all hell job and come out no less sane than i was to begin with, (very marginally sane that is). I’ve done a semesters worth of correspondance university and also bought a ton of gadgets. All up I’m pretty happy with the way i’ve handled myself through this past year, sure it could have been better but hey who am i to judge, im happy enough as it is.
Mowana if you’re out there reading this, happy non-anniversary.
